Monday, September 28, 2015
Post-Reading Reflections
This past weekend was the FreshINK staged reading of The Haunting of the Weave. (I'm ready to change the name now. It was good to hear it read and to see what worked and what didn't. I feel like I have a clear idea of what to change if I continue to go in this direction. Although, I see some new ways to go as well.
I'm trying to write down my thoughts now so that I can have them on paper and then put them away for awhile while I concentrate on the rest of my job.
I do feel really lucky to be able to have had the luxury of a sabbatical to do the research and to work to produce something creative AND personal. It has been a great journey for me. It isn't over yet, but it is time to put it aside and let it marinate.
I had a wonderful experience with the actors, stage manager, sound and projection folks. If anyone in that group is reading this. THANK YOU!!
Thursday, September 24, 2015
Tomorrow We Perform
Well, 4 rehearsals in and we've made a lot of changes. I wish we had more time and more technology. I'd love to have a loom on stage, use more of the projections, create more staging. But, this is a reading and I need to let it be what it is.
The actors are doing a great job, working hard and doing their best to bring these sometimes wordy and difficult speeches to life. I'm working on the 'cues' now and in a few hours we will have our last rehearsal.
I am both really excited AND really terrified to bring this before an audience. I know that it is not ready for 'prime time' yet and still very much a work-in-progress. My delicate ego worries about being destroyed. At the same time, I'm eager to see what does work and what people have to say. So, for anyone out there reading this... wish me luck!!!
The actors are doing a great job, working hard and doing their best to bring these sometimes wordy and difficult speeches to life. I'm working on the 'cues' now and in a few hours we will have our last rehearsal.
I am both really excited AND really terrified to bring this before an audience. I know that it is not ready for 'prime time' yet and still very much a work-in-progress. My delicate ego worries about being destroyed. At the same time, I'm eager to see what does work and what people have to say. So, for anyone out there reading this... wish me luck!!!
Friday, September 18, 2015
First Rehearsal
I'm really excited! We had our first rehearsal for the FreshINK reading of the play. It is still raw and needs a lot of work, but having enthusiastic actors working on it and giving it life felt really rewarding. The reading is one week from day (and through that weekend) and we have four more rehearsals. There's a lot to do, but it is good to be at this stage.
Monday, September 7, 2015
Well... it's out there...
The play now has a working title: "The Haunting of the Weave: The story of the Lowell Mill Girls." Not sure that is the right title, but it is what I have right now. I've put it on our department D2L page so that students can read it and be prepared for auditions on September 14th. We will be doing the play as part of our FreshINK program in late September. I'm both excited and terrified.
There have been a lot of changes but I still feel that it is very much a work-in-progress. I feel very attached to it and also a bit frightened of what this next stage will be. But, having it performed - even as a reading - will really help me to see whether I can go on with it, or if that is the extent of the life of the piece. We shall see. To be continued...
There have been a lot of changes but I still feel that it is very much a work-in-progress. I feel very attached to it and also a bit frightened of what this next stage will be. But, having it performed - even as a reading - will really help me to see whether I can go on with it, or if that is the extent of the life of the piece. We shall see. To be continued...
Tuesday, August 4, 2015
Next Steps
I have been on vacation and away from this for a while. I'm working on syllabi this week, but I also anticipate getting another annotated revision done with notes about transitions (music and projections).
I'm feeling quite positive at this point. I will be in Boston in a few weeks and hope to take some final photos of Lowell today (depending on my family obligations).
Next, we will be doing the play for the first FreshINK at Parkside and I'm both nervous and excited. I know that the script still needs work and that there are things that are far from perfect, but I believe that hearing it and seeing it will be helpful and I think (fingers crossed) that I'm ready for this level of performance.
John played me some of what he is doing with sound/music yesterday and that was very exciting as well!!!!!!
I'm feeling quite positive at this point. I will be in Boston in a few weeks and hope to take some final photos of Lowell today (depending on my family obligations).
Next, we will be doing the play for the first FreshINK at Parkside and I'm both nervous and excited. I know that the script still needs work and that there are things that are far from perfect, but I believe that hearing it and seeing it will be helpful and I think (fingers crossed) that I'm ready for this level of performance.
John played me some of what he is doing with sound/music yesterday and that was very exciting as well!!!!!!
Wednesday, July 8, 2015
Music
I had a great meeting with John Costigan yesterday to talk about the music for the reading. We both think in similar ways about music so it was a great conversation. I just went through the script and looked for sound and music.
The big news is that I'm swallowing my pride (knowing that this will be personally difficult for me) and we will have this as the first reading in our FreshINK series at the end of September. Right now, after thinking of several different ideas, I think I'm going to keep it simple and call it "The Lowell Factory Girls". Clear - not exciting - but clear.
I've added myself into the script at the end as part of a monologue. I'm not sure it works, but I was encouraged to do it. I look forward to making the next round of cuts and changes as I'm finally beginning to see how this will work on stage!
Listening to music was helpful. I had some songs in my head but found a few that are interesting in their connection. I remembered that The Roches did a great version of "The Factory Girl" on their album NURDS. I don't think I can legally post the link to the song (and don't even know if anyone is really reading this) but you can search for it on iTunes. It is an old Irish folksong that applies and it has been performed by many folk artists over the years. This is not, by the way, the Rolling Stones song that will also come up in a search. :)
The big news is that I'm swallowing my pride (knowing that this will be personally difficult for me) and we will have this as the first reading in our FreshINK series at the end of September. Right now, after thinking of several different ideas, I think I'm going to keep it simple and call it "The Lowell Factory Girls". Clear - not exciting - but clear.
I've added myself into the script at the end as part of a monologue. I'm not sure it works, but I was encouraged to do it. I look forward to making the next round of cuts and changes as I'm finally beginning to see how this will work on stage!
Listening to music was helpful. I had some songs in my head but found a few that are interesting in their connection. I remembered that The Roches did a great version of "The Factory Girl" on their album NURDS. I don't think I can legally post the link to the song (and don't even know if anyone is really reading this) but you can search for it on iTunes. It is an old Irish folksong that applies and it has been performed by many folk artists over the years. This is not, by the way, the Rolling Stones song that will also come up in a search. :)
Tuesday, June 30, 2015
Finishing Another Draft
It has been awhile since I last posted here. I won't go into too much detail about the reading. There was a lot that I was disappointed about, but the feedback was pretty good overall - certainly helpful. I left feeling discouraged but after having it ferment a bit in my mind, I came up with some new ideas that I'm working on now and I think that will really help. I'm adding a character and making some fundamental changes. Also, cutting a lot and adding a scene or two and some commentary. We'll see how that reads.
In the meantime, I had a short visit to Lowell. It wasn't as long as I'd hoped for. I took my Dad and he tired quickly and we had to leave. BUT, I did get to go to the American Textile Museum. I'd never been there before and spent a lot of time with a docent looking at the machinery and talking about what each machine does. It was fascinating. I could have spent all day there. I'll go back in July and maybe in August.
I'm hoping that I can get this draft done today and out to Julie and Roseann to read. At any rate, I'm feeling better and excited.
Some pictures:
This first picture is raw cotton. I love it. It is, of course, the beginning of the process.
This second picture is of a picking machine: preparing the cotton and cleaning it.
This next picture is of an old factory that is next to the Lowell Park Visitor Center. Some of it is condominiums and offices, not sure of the rest.
In the meantime, I had a short visit to Lowell. It wasn't as long as I'd hoped for. I took my Dad and he tired quickly and we had to leave. BUT, I did get to go to the American Textile Museum. I'd never been there before and spent a lot of time with a docent looking at the machinery and talking about what each machine does. It was fascinating. I could have spent all day there. I'll go back in July and maybe in August.
I'm hoping that I can get this draft done today and out to Julie and Roseann to read. At any rate, I'm feeling better and excited.
Some pictures:
This first picture is raw cotton. I love it. It is, of course, the beginning of the process.
This second picture is of a picking machine: preparing the cotton and cleaning it.
This next picture is of an old factory that is next to the Lowell Park Visitor Center. Some of it is condominiums and offices, not sure of the rest.
Monday, June 15, 2015
Reading Tonight
I'm excited and nervous to hear the piece read tonight. We'll see what the evening holds...
Thursday, June 11, 2015
Ready for a Reading
Well, the time has come to hear the play read. Next Monday is the day, and my friend Roseann and my partner Julie will join me in listening. I'm feeling pretty anxious about this as I don't know where I really am. I think this can work as a reading, but it definitely is not a traditional play with dialogue and conflict. I'm still not sure how I feel about that. I guess, in some ways, I feel that I have failed and I'm very concerned about other people seeing that. At the same time, the goal was to do this as a reading in our FreshINK series in the fall, and I need to make a decision in the next week if I'm really going to be ready and open to doing that.
I think that writing and/or creating anything is complex. For me, at this point in my life, after talking about this and wanting to do this... I can't really gage the work and feel unsure about how to move on from here. I'm certainly not sure that I'm ready for the kind of critique that I know will come, even if it works on some level. It is hard enough to be honest here. Publicly and face to face????? I'm not sure. BUT, I'm going to have the reading and that is the next step. Whoever might be reading this, wish me luck.
As I wrote that last sentence, another idea came to me. It really only has to feel like a success to me. I have to remember that. The goal has never been to have this published or see it move to other places, but rather to engage with ideas and a topic that feel important and exciting to me.
Stay tuned to next week's 'assessment' of the reading.
I think that writing and/or creating anything is complex. For me, at this point in my life, after talking about this and wanting to do this... I can't really gage the work and feel unsure about how to move on from here. I'm certainly not sure that I'm ready for the kind of critique that I know will come, even if it works on some level. It is hard enough to be honest here. Publicly and face to face????? I'm not sure. BUT, I'm going to have the reading and that is the next step. Whoever might be reading this, wish me luck.
As I wrote that last sentence, another idea came to me. It really only has to feel like a success to me. I have to remember that. The goal has never been to have this published or see it move to other places, but rather to engage with ideas and a topic that feel important and exciting to me.
Stay tuned to next week's 'assessment' of the reading.
Thursday, May 28, 2015
I'm at a bit of a standstill
I haven't had much to write of late. I've finished the third draft of the play and have it out to my family and a few others to read and give me feedback. I'm quite anxious about it as I don't really think it works and I don't know what to do next. I think I need that feedback before I can move forward. If people think it is ready, I'm up for a reading and will be trying to pull people together in early June. That should help a lot. Hearing it read will help me to see what does and doesn't work. BUT, I'm terrified that it will be such a flop that I'll embarrass myself.
I never expected to be a playwright but felt that this was a story I wanted to explore and tell. It has ended up far different from what I had thought it might be. To be honest, it is a disappointment to me that I haven't found the way to make it a fully dramatic piece. I think it is a reading and I'm trying to accept that. My hope is that it will be successful as that. Still, I feel like I personally accomplished something and I don't want to belittle that.
Otherwise, waiting for the editors to respond to my article. That also has me anxious.
So... I'm anxious. I guess that should have been the title!
I never expected to be a playwright but felt that this was a story I wanted to explore and tell. It has ended up far different from what I had thought it might be. To be honest, it is a disappointment to me that I haven't found the way to make it a fully dramatic piece. I think it is a reading and I'm trying to accept that. My hope is that it will be successful as that. Still, I feel like I personally accomplished something and I don't want to belittle that.
Otherwise, waiting for the editors to respond to my article. That also has me anxious.
So... I'm anxious. I guess that should have been the title!
Tuesday, May 12, 2015
Part II
OK. I've been spending the last few days with my lovely daughter, home from school along with dealing with some Parkside business. Now that I've turned my article in to the editors (with me luck), I'm ready to start the second draft of the play. I have a bunch of new ideas and thoughts and am eager to get going. I feel like I'm right where I need to be!!!
Wednesday, May 6, 2015
Article Draft Finished!
I know I still have some work yet to do: cutting and putting citations in, but it it really basically done. Now I have someone reading it for feedback and I hope to send it off to the editors on Friday for their feedback - which I know will be good and rigorous. That feels good.
I'm going back to the Lowell Project on Monday. I've been away from it now and will be getting feedback from dear Roseann next week. I'm looking forward to that. My goal is to have that in good shape by the end of the month! Yay!
After several weeks of feeling worried and behind... I feel good today. And, my lovely daughter comes home tomorrow. All is well!
I'm going back to the Lowell Project on Monday. I've been away from it now and will be getting feedback from dear Roseann next week. I'm looking forward to that. My goal is to have that in good shape by the end of the month! Yay!
After several weeks of feeling worried and behind... I feel good today. And, my lovely daughter comes home tomorrow. All is well!
Monday, May 4, 2015
Time to get serious!
It is amazing how many things I can find to distract myself from finishing this damn article. I've done two loads of laundry, cleaned the washing machine, organizing the pantry, wrote a letter, added CD's to my iTunes, updated my iPod.... I've gotten a lot done! Just not work. :( So, now I am going back to my article to finish the last part and start editing. I've promised myself to work through the next 4 hours. Wish this procrastinator luck!!
Tuesday, April 28, 2015
Beautiful Day
After working on numerous things that don't have anything to do with my sabbatical but that have to be done for Parkside, I'm going to take my irritable self out for a long walk on this beautiful sunny day.
It has been heard to avoid the work of the department and some things have to be done by me. It does feel sometimes like I haven't been able to concentrate as much as I'd like to on the work at hand, but I just need to suck it up and get there. I have the draft of my article about half done and expect to have it done by the end of the week. I can then re-work, add references, and create a viewable second draft for the editors next week. (I hope.)
So, off to walk along the shores of beautiful Lake Michigan to be rejuvenated!
Now back from that beautiful walk. It was great for my mood. Here are some pictures of the Milwaukee lakeside on this beautiful, crisp day.
It has been heard to avoid the work of the department and some things have to be done by me. It does feel sometimes like I haven't been able to concentrate as much as I'd like to on the work at hand, but I just need to suck it up and get there. I have the draft of my article about half done and expect to have it done by the end of the week. I can then re-work, add references, and create a viewable second draft for the editors next week. (I hope.)
So, off to walk along the shores of beautiful Lake Michigan to be rejuvenated!
Now back from that beautiful walk. It was great for my mood. Here are some pictures of the Milwaukee lakeside on this beautiful, crisp day.
Wednesday, April 22, 2015
Started Writing An Article
It feels good to put the Mill Girls aside for a little while. I think I'll be able to see the script with fresh eyes by doing that. Of course, it also is scary. I fear I may lose whatever momentum I have.
But I am embarking on a different project - one with a clear deadline - and I need to really focus on that for the next three weeks. I'm writing an article on "Critique as a Signature Pedagogy in Theatre". It is an article in a special journal on Arts and Humanities and it is based on a panel that I participated in at the ISSOTL (International Society for the Scholarship of Teaching and Learning) conference in Quebec in October. I had written a previous book chapter on this a number of years ago and it is really interesting to revisit the subject. I am also doing this as a project from colleagues I know and respect. That raises the stakes which is good for me.
While it may be misplaced, I'm feeling pretty confident about this. Academic writing doesn't come easy for me as I don't do it very often, but I know that I CAN do it so its is a matter of focus at this point. I've done all the reading I needed to do and have outlined what I want to say. I started the introduction yesterday and I feel good about getting into the meat of it today. This is material I know from my own experience - as a student and a teacher - and while challenging to get it down on paper, I'm excited to do so! Unlike the play, I know the beginning, middle, and end for this one.
But I am embarking on a different project - one with a clear deadline - and I need to really focus on that for the next three weeks. I'm writing an article on "Critique as a Signature Pedagogy in Theatre". It is an article in a special journal on Arts and Humanities and it is based on a panel that I participated in at the ISSOTL (International Society for the Scholarship of Teaching and Learning) conference in Quebec in October. I had written a previous book chapter on this a number of years ago and it is really interesting to revisit the subject. I am also doing this as a project from colleagues I know and respect. That raises the stakes which is good for me.
While it may be misplaced, I'm feeling pretty confident about this. Academic writing doesn't come easy for me as I don't do it very often, but I know that I CAN do it so its is a matter of focus at this point. I've done all the reading I needed to do and have outlined what I want to say. I started the introduction yesterday and I feel good about getting into the meat of it today. This is material I know from my own experience - as a student and a teacher - and while challenging to get it down on paper, I'm excited to do so! Unlike the play, I know the beginning, middle, and end for this one.
Monday, April 20, 2015
I had the wonderful opportunity to see an amazing play, An Exaltation of Larks at the Kohler Center in Sheboygan. It was developed by Sandglass Theatre's D-Generation which focuses on the creative potential of people living with late-stage dimension.
This play was based on stories written by groups of people with dementia who are played by puppets with three actors. It was funny, sad, moving, and very creative. My friend Sabrina, from college and New York, who went to the same grad school at a different time, invited me. She was the lighting designer and is the Artistic Director of the KO Theatre in Amherst, MA which was involved in the development of the piece I'm so glad that we went. I loved the show and it was great to see Sabrina after.... 25 years?????
Wonderful work and it was another reminder about the stories we tell in the theatre and how much they connect to our lives and our understanding of the world... Many reminders of my Mom as well.
Thursday, April 16, 2015
Correction
I stand corrected. While looking through portraits of the Boston Associates, Lowell's founders, I realize that what appeared to be a portrait of Francis Cabot Lowell, is not him. The portrait below is of Patrick Tracy Jackson, another of the founders of Lowell. There are, in fact, no portraits of Lowell in existence.
Oops
Oops
Wednesday, April 15, 2015
New Ideas
I had a great meeting with my dear friend Roseann today to talk about the script, my feelings about it, and how to move forward. She was incredibly helpful and I'm feeling so much better today. Despite the fact that I need to put this project on hold for awhile, I think I'm going to take tomorrow and do some free-writing to try to solidify those ideas into a thematic progression.
It was so helpful to talk about the overall project and get back to the reasons that this is so interesting to me - what it is about this time and these women that has really grabbed my heart and my mind. I've been realizing, over the past few months, that the story that I really want to tell is much bigger than the one I thought I was telling. The women are the heart of the story, but it is about so much more. Roseann helped me to stop thinking about what I planned to do, and just pick up on things as they come up. The true themes and conflicts are emerging through the writing, not as an intellectual process where I write what I've already planned. I'm not sure if that will make sense to anyone else, but it definitely does to me.
I hope that by tomorrow, by engaging with the writing and the ideas in a new way, I'll be able to write here about some new avenues and ways that I'm moving things forward. After all, I've just done a draft. There will be many more to come and things will be cut and the need for new sections will, I assume, arise.
While I had been thinking about this, Roseann really encouraged me to have a reading of the script sooner then later. I had thought about inviting people to read when the play was close to done. But I think she is right. I need to hear it sooner so I can see how these words come to life (or don't). So... I have no idea who may be reading this but if you are local and interested, let me know. Perhaps in May I will have an informal reading - not for anyone else to hear but for me to grab hold of where I am.
This is Francis Cabot Lowell, he died prior to the founding of the city, but he was instrumental in the development of the mills and the city is named for him.
A great difference from the workers who, in the early days, came from farms and later (after the mill girls were long gone) came from immigrant tenements...
It was so helpful to talk about the overall project and get back to the reasons that this is so interesting to me - what it is about this time and these women that has really grabbed my heart and my mind. I've been realizing, over the past few months, that the story that I really want to tell is much bigger than the one I thought I was telling. The women are the heart of the story, but it is about so much more. Roseann helped me to stop thinking about what I planned to do, and just pick up on things as they come up. The true themes and conflicts are emerging through the writing, not as an intellectual process where I write what I've already planned. I'm not sure if that will make sense to anyone else, but it definitely does to me.
I hope that by tomorrow, by engaging with the writing and the ideas in a new way, I'll be able to write here about some new avenues and ways that I'm moving things forward. After all, I've just done a draft. There will be many more to come and things will be cut and the need for new sections will, I assume, arise.
While I had been thinking about this, Roseann really encouraged me to have a reading of the script sooner then later. I had thought about inviting people to read when the play was close to done. But I think she is right. I need to hear it sooner so I can see how these words come to life (or don't). So... I have no idea who may be reading this but if you are local and interested, let me know. Perhaps in May I will have an informal reading - not for anyone else to hear but for me to grab hold of where I am.
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This is Francis Cabot Lowell, he died prior to the founding of the city, but he was instrumental in the development of the mills and the city is named for him.
The poet Amy Lowell was a relative of his. She was part of this early American family that had tremendous wealth. They and their relatives were part of the Boston elite and, while Lowell was a brilliant mathematician and an innovator, his goal - and that of the other Boston Associates who invested in these mills - was to increase the wealth of the family, among other things.
There was such disparity between the mill owners and the mill workers in terms of money and lifestyle. This is no different from what we see today with the 1% and the dying middle class.
That being said, I found this poem of Amy Lowell's describing the luxurious surroundings she grew up with:
My grandpa lives in a wonderful house
With a great many windows and doors,
There are stairs that go up and stairs that go down
To such beautiful slippery floors.
A great difference from the workers who, in the early days, came from farms and later (after the mill girls were long gone) came from immigrant tenements...
Tuesday, April 14, 2015
First Draft is Complete!
I have really been struggling but I believe I am done with the first draft. It still needs a lot of cleaning up, a better ending, and more action, but I feel like I've accomplished a lot - although it took me twice as long as I expected
to get to this point.
Now I get to put this aside for a few weeks and start working on my critique article.
I find myself really struggling with this kind of writing. I knew it would be hard, but I am amazed at how difficult it is to take my ideas and make them work dramatically. It is almost as if the things I know about plays, dramaturgy, telling a story - are all separate from what I'm trying to do here. That is enormously frustrating. At some point I will need to refresh this and let someone else read it. Even better, listen to it read out load. I'm not ready for that yet, though. I'm not brave enough.
I love these pictures. I can't wait to take what I have and go back to Lowell to take more photographs AND to find more photos and more lithographs of the early days. That is a summer project.
to get to this point.
Now I get to put this aside for a few weeks and start working on my critique article.
I find myself really struggling with this kind of writing. I knew it would be hard, but I am amazed at how difficult it is to take my ideas and make them work dramatically. It is almost as if the things I know about plays, dramaturgy, telling a story - are all separate from what I'm trying to do here. That is enormously frustrating. At some point I will need to refresh this and let someone else read it. Even better, listen to it read out load. I'm not ready for that yet, though. I'm not brave enough.I love these pictures. I can't wait to take what I have and go back to Lowell to take more photographs AND to find more photos and more lithographs of the early days. That is a summer project.
Thursday, April 9, 2015
Thursday update
I started writing a bit of dialogue today to fit into some of the more narrative sections and break them up. I know that things will need to be moved around, but I think that I should be doing more of this. I am not the best dialogue writer, but it seems that it is needed. I assume that I can pull together a number of students this spring or summer to read some of this so I can hear what works and what doesn't.
I have two more sections to go and then I think it is editing and moving things around to have this first draft done. I'm hoping to get to that point by the end of the day on Monday so I can start to focus on two other pieces of writing that are hanging over my head. Yikes!
I'm off to the library - first, because I have to leave as people are doing some work at home; second, so that I can be sure that I don't get distracted by anything at home... It is amazing how the little household tasks can call to me when I want to be taken away from the pain of writing...
I have two more sections to go and then I think it is editing and moving things around to have this first draft done. I'm hoping to get to that point by the end of the day on Monday so I can start to focus on two other pieces of writing that are hanging over my head. Yikes!
I'm off to the library - first, because I have to leave as people are doing some work at home; second, so that I can be sure that I don't get distracted by anything at home... It is amazing how the little household tasks can call to me when I want to be taken away from the pain of writing...
Tuesday, April 7, 2015
Discipline
There are always distractions from writing... and then there is the overwhelming distraction that comes from the weight of what I have to do.
I have spent my morning taking care of errands, bills, laundry, exercising... and now I'm going to vote. When I come back, I'm trying a new approach. I'm going to start keeping a 'schedule' of how long I will work and what I will try to accomplish. By breaking it down into smaller pieces, I feel that I'll be able to be more disciplined. So, today's job is to read through the whole thing and see what the shape really is, not what I think it is or hope it is. From there I think I'll be able to focus on the sections that are working and clean those up and see how they fit into that overall shape. At least, that is my hope. By forcing myself to make these entries in the blog, I have accountability and that is a good thing at this stage. I'm in that awful middle place and I need to get beyond where I am now.
This is a calico power loom. I spent some time earlier looking at images of the machinery in the mills in those early days. Look at all those wheels and pieces that have to work together in order to create the product. It isn't terribly complicated compared to many modern machines, but still: all those pieces need to fit together in just the right way. That is today's metaphor for my writing - I need to see how all these pieces work together to create a viable product
I have spent my morning taking care of errands, bills, laundry, exercising... and now I'm going to vote. When I come back, I'm trying a new approach. I'm going to start keeping a 'schedule' of how long I will work and what I will try to accomplish. By breaking it down into smaller pieces, I feel that I'll be able to be more disciplined. So, today's job is to read through the whole thing and see what the shape really is, not what I think it is or hope it is. From there I think I'll be able to focus on the sections that are working and clean those up and see how they fit into that overall shape. At least, that is my hope. By forcing myself to make these entries in the blog, I have accountability and that is a good thing at this stage. I'm in that awful middle place and I need to get beyond where I am now.
This is a calico power loom. I spent some time earlier looking at images of the machinery in the mills in those early days. Look at all those wheels and pieces that have to work together in order to create the product. It isn't terribly complicated compared to many modern machines, but still: all those pieces need to fit together in just the right way. That is today's metaphor for my writing - I need to see how all these pieces work together to create a viable product
Tuesday, March 31, 2015
Great Quote
I read a wonderful book this past week: Transatlantic, by Colum McCann. The story is not related in any way to what I am writing, but the style of the book really intrigued me - multiple stories, with real and fictional characters, coming together over continents and time periods. It gave me some new thoughts about what I'm writing and how I might solve my 'construction' problem. There is a wonderful quote at the beginning of the book. I've read it over and over and really love it:
No history is mute. No matter how much they own it,
break it, and lie about it, human history refuses to
shut its mouth. Despite deafness and ignorance, the
time that was continues to tick inside the time that is.
-Eduardo Galeano
This is the idea behind the story that I want to tell of Lowell. It is not just the story of women workers, or the labor movement, or the textile industry. . . It is, of course, all of that, but it is also about how the past leads to the present, and how the present reflects the past and shapes our understanding of it.
Tuesday, March 24, 2015
Frustration
I'm now at that point in the process where I have a lot written but feel that it isn't coming together. I'm not sure where to go at this point. I'm frustrated because the beginning feels solid and on the right track and then... it seems to fall apart. It feels like I've made some real miscalculations about how to take the story of these women and their experience and make it work dramatically. I worry that I've merely written a history lecture which is certainly not the same as a docudrama.
I guess the way forward right now is for me to get all the pieces there and the shape it. I think I am getting closer to that aspect. Perhaps spending the next two days finishing that and then taking time to work on my article will give me a fresh perspective to come back and think more dramatically. I hope so.
This picture of the mills reflects my mood right now.
I guess the way forward right now is for me to get all the pieces there and the shape it. I think I am getting closer to that aspect. Perhaps spending the next two days finishing that and then taking time to work on my article will give me a fresh perspective to come back and think more dramatically. I hope so.
This picture of the mills reflects my mood right now.
Wednesday, March 18, 2015
Some Clarity...
I've been trying to figure out what this play really is. I've felt a tremendous pressure (from myself, of course) to make this a legitimate dramatic piece, with all the important pieces: original dialogue, conflict, a structure that fits within something expected. . . But every time I sit down and write dialogue between characters, it feels very false. After all, it is the history of this place, the actual people who lived and worked in Lowell. The power of the 'industrial machine' and the implications for the labor movement. It is those big issues that interest me and every time I try to take something and make it a fictional account of reality - it feels false, and awkward. I KNOW that there is theatrical material here and I also know that the story I want to tell lies in history, not in fiction. I've been struggling with this and going back and forth but think today I've come to the conclusion that it really is ok to do a docudrama of sorts. This simply is not going to be a traditional play. It is going to be my attempt to bring alive this history, largely through the primary materials that exist.
I do worry that it will feel too much like a lecture and not like a theatrical experience. I think the trick will be to give it a logical flow and find the ways to talk this narration and theatricalize it. I could be wrong. Right now (as I'm trying to breath through a bad cold), I'm a bit stuck and feeling like this will disappoint. I keep trying to remind myself that the only person I truly need to please is myself. But............
I do worry that it will feel too much like a lecture and not like a theatrical experience. I think the trick will be to give it a logical flow and find the ways to talk this narration and theatricalize it. I could be wrong. Right now (as I'm trying to breath through a bad cold), I'm a bit stuck and feeling like this will disappoint. I keep trying to remind myself that the only person I truly need to please is myself. But............
Friday, March 13, 2015
Cloth
I spent yesterday 'reviewing' the process of taking raw cotton and turning it into cloth. So fascinating to me as it really isn't something I've ever thought a great deal about. I've certainly thought about who makes our clothes and where. I've thought about the labor issues and the sweatshops both here and across the world. But even amidst my interest in this story and the textile industry, I hadn't really thought about the process itself. When you think about the pre-industrial period and the amount of time it took for people to make their own clothes - and the difficulty - it contextualizes the value of creating a system where cotton could be taken from its raw state, cleaned, made into threads, strengthened, and woven into cloth. Even though woven cloth was certainly available prior to these mills, just thinking about the impact of being able to do that with machines all under one roof clarifies how revolutionary this was!
Another point of interest is the fact that the cotton came from the south and was shipped to the north. Even though many in Lowell opposed slavery, in this pre-civil war period they were actually supporting the cotton trade using slaves as laborers to harvest the raw material. It is another piece of this that intrigues me - there is a whole social/political aspect of this story that is fascinating: the debate over an agrarian vs. an industrial future for America, the role of slavery in early industrialization, the feminist perspective of an ignored population that is able to move toward independence and freedom through work in the mills.
So... what is the story I'm telling????
Wednesday, March 11, 2015
Why They Came to Lowell
There are many interesting letters and diary entries from the girls and some who made their way to Lowell in the early years. Harriet Robinson, one of the more well-known girls recorded her reminiscences of her life in Lowell. She feared that her family would not let her leave:
"I wanted to earn money like the other little girls."
For some it was the lure of independence and making their own money for a variety of purposes. For others, it was a necessity as times were hard on the farm and many farmers in the 1840's were in trouble. The following is from a letter by a woman who moved part of her family to Nashua, NH - not far from Lowell - in 1843 to work in the mills.
"You will probably want to know the cause of our moving here which are many. I will mention a few of them. One of them is the hard times to get a living off the farm for so late a family so we have devided our family for this year. We have left Plummer and Luther to care for the farm and granmarm and Aunt Polly. The rest of us have moved to Nashvill (a part of Nashua) thinking the girls and Charles they would probely work in the Mill. But we have had bad luck in giving them in only Jane has got in yet. Ann has the pros of going to the mill next week. Hannah is going to school. We are in hopes to take a few borders but have not got any yet."
Hoping to improve the family income was a strong reason to move. As the mills expanded throughout New England, it was a possibility for a better life, although it didn't always turn out that way.
Once people moved to the mill towns, they often wrote to friends and family members to join them. This is from a Vermont farmer who had moved to Massachusetts and felt that life was better in the mills.
"I do not know how you are situated, but I think you can live here easer and make more money here than up thare... You take some Borders, the children work in the mill, you can have steady work all the time and good wages if you are well. Your incum will at least be six hundred dollars a year...I wish you to come down this winter and seem me and look around an see if it is not best. Fore it is hard business for a poor man up there."
This letter was written in 1847 when there were changes with more men and children working in the mills.
Monday, March 9, 2015
Back from Vacation and Digging In!!
Just as I began writing I was 'distracted' by a wonderful week in St. Maarten with my partner and friends. While I feel like it set me back, it also felt good to be away from the pressure and let things bubble in my mind.
Sitting on the beach and looking out at that beautiful clear ocean gave me some opportunities to just let ideas come and go. I hope that the time will help me to be more focused as I really crack down over the next few weeks.
(As an aside, a few pictures of vacation):
The first picture is from an amazing beach where we spent the day. The second is from the deck where we were staying. You can see how staring out at the water would be mesmerizing, allowing the imagination to fly!
But, now it is time to get serious. I have the framework now. I know the characters, the first scene is written, and I have a sense of how the play moves through time. I know the beginning and the end, and I'm beginning to understand how the play "feels" as I'm writing. I hear a lot of sound that I feel will be very important - the sound of water, of the looms, of the factory bell, music from the period. For me, right now, it is the sounds that are leading me forward. We shall see where that takes me.
Sitting on the beach and looking out at that beautiful clear ocean gave me some opportunities to just let ideas come and go. I hope that the time will help me to be more focused as I really crack down over the next few weeks.
(As an aside, a few pictures of vacation):
The first picture is from an amazing beach where we spent the day. The second is from the deck where we were staying. You can see how staring out at the water would be mesmerizing, allowing the imagination to fly!
But, now it is time to get serious. I have the framework now. I know the characters, the first scene is written, and I have a sense of how the play moves through time. I know the beginning and the end, and I'm beginning to understand how the play "feels" as I'm writing. I hear a lot of sound that I feel will be very important - the sound of water, of the looms, of the factory bell, music from the period. For me, right now, it is the sounds that are leading me forward. We shall see where that takes me.
Tuesday, February 24, 2015
Ready to begin....
"All was expectancy, changes were coming...nobody could guess what."
-Lucy Larcom, a Lowell Mill Girl
I'm ready to start writing. I've decided that too much reading and research is getting in my way and I just need to take a deep breath and jump in. I'm excited. I'm also scared. BUT, I think I have my entry point and that feels good. I also am trying to trust myself to just start writing and see what unfolds. . . all is expectancy. . .
Wednesday, February 18, 2015
Let's Give This a Try!
As part of my sabbatical proposal, I promised that I would create a blog and document my experience. At this point, I don't know exactly what form this will take, but I think I'll just allow it to take shape as I move through the process. I'm making a promise (to myself) to write at least once weekly to talk about my progress. Knowing myself, my guess is that this will be more of a journal - about the project and about other things that I am working on this semester. I will try not to be boring and redundant, and will try not to be too personal here. BUT, I know that this work does feel very personal to me and that it will not be possible for me to write about this without talking about my feelings about the project and the fears and joys that come with it. To my students - current and past - I see this is an example of self-reflection. We all know that our work in theatre is personal. It can't help but be. This particular process of creation involves my doing something that I have never done before - writing a play. Knowing a lot about how plays are constructed and writing one are two very different things. I'm painfully aware of that at this point. So... I guess we'll just see how this goes!
I've spent time so far this semester visiting family and working hard to be present with my Dad and to help with a variety of financial, organizational, and care taking needs that he has. While my brother is an amazing man, doing the bulk of things that need to be done (and being a wonderful, kind and helpful son), it is important for me to do what I can. Having this time with a flexible schedule means that I need to take advantage of it and do whatever I can to make myself helpful. This changes the dynamic of this time 'off' to write, and simply means that I have to organize myself better. Continuing to do some necessary things for the department and having a major article that needs to be written are also things that make me panic from time to time. I had hoped to really concentrate on this alone, but luck will not have it so. I am determined, however to do my best and have something to show for it. I don't guarantee that it will be any good, but I plan to give it my "all", as they say.
While in Boston I spent one day in Lowell, Massachusetts - the site of my research and the place where this project is centered. It was a very cold day, in between blizzards, and as it was a Sunday many of the things I wanted to see were closed. Still, I was able to see a lot and to re-ground myself in this place that has so intrigued me for 30 years.
The picture above is of a statue of the Lowell Mill Girls that I love. I took the picture but couldn't get any closer to the sculpture (due to snow and ice) to find the year it was made. Clearly it is new and I love the modern feel of it. It gives me that thrill of history happening today - links me to the story of these women in the past, and the impact that they have had on the present. It is a lovely sculpture.
My Proposal
For those of you who don't know what I'm really doing, here is some background and a brief summary of what I'm hoping to accomplish. (Most of this is taken from my actual sabbatical proposal):
From farms in Vermont, New Hampshire, Maine, and Massachusetts the Mill Girls - some of the very first female industrial wage earners in the United States - flocked to the newly built mills and boarding houses in Lowell, Massachusetts from 1823 through the 1860's. The wages offered to them were the highest for female employees anywhere in America (from $1.85 to $3.00 per week), and presented independence and opportunities in the country's first planned industrial community. The textile industry in Lowell began a nationwide shift from farm to factory, and these women were the first factory workers. Despite a seventy hour work week they took classes, went to church and to concerts, and many of them found the time and energy to begin their own literary magazine, The Lowell Offering.
When Francis Cabot Lowell, a wealthy Boston businessman, traveled to England in 1810, he was looking to copy many aspects of the English industrial model. The goal was to develop a system, however, that would create an American industrial experience introducing large-scale manufacturing without the human degradation that he had observed overseas. The idea of a female labor force came into being as a way to control conditions and to keep the communities where these factories were built from becoming slums and breeding places for 'sin and corruption.' If good young Yankee women could be recruited, they could be controlled in ways that men could not. To accommodate this new work force, therefore, a boardinghouse system was created where young women would live together, under the supervision of a matron, with strict adherence to regulations of behavior and mandatory church attendance. The girls were required (at first) to reside in these boardinghouses where the doors were locked promptly at ten o'clock each night. Visitors from all over the nation and the world, including Charles Dickens, President Andrew Jackson, and Harriet Martineau (an English writer and social reformer), recorded their impressions ad showed amazement at the energy of these women and their desire for self-improvement. It was, in so many ways, an amazing experiment and one that interested visitors as a model for the future of industrialization.
Many young women from the farms of New England were eager to leave their homes for the independent and self-sufficient lives advertised in Lowell. There are numerous diaries and letters from this period, documenting the desire for a new life, as well as the experience in those early days.
Below is an excerpt from a letter from Sally Rice of Vermont who left her home in 1838 to take her first job "working out". Writing to her parents, she tells why she does not wish to come home:
"I can never be happy there in among so many mountains...I shall need all I have got and as for
marrying and settling in that wilderness, I won't... I am almost 19 years old. I must of course have something of my own before many more years have passed over my head. And where is that something to come from if I go home and earn nothing?...I have but one life and I want to enjoy myself as well as I can while I live."
While the early days of this labor experiment,along with the energy and pursuits of these mill girls as they were known, was often portrayed positively, things changed rapidly as the city grew quickly and the labor practices of Lowell began to spread throughout a growing New England textile industry.While many of these women did develop independence and were able to support themselves and send money home, for many the long hours, rigid rules, and isolated lifestyle was not a happy one. As more money was made by the owners allowing more factories to be built, greed and competition led to reductions in pay and speed-ups of machinery increasing the already unhealthy working conditions to more hazardous ones with fewer benefits and greater risk. From here, the story leads from a paternalistic relationship between mill owners and workers to a far more adversarial one. There were labor protests and women began to publish in a variety of venues about the greed of the owners, the conditions in the mills, and the lack of rights of the workers.
The story of the Lowell mill operatives can be viewed from many perspectives. It is a story of a changing America, from agrarian to industrial. It is a feminist story and an important chapter of labor history in this county. It is the story of thousands of individual women and girls who sought to change their lives by making a move to be independent - to leave their farms and families and to change their lives, both economically and personally. The changing nature of women's work from the farming communities of New England to the factory system is an amazing story.
The Product
My goal is to develop a full-length play that will focus on the experience of the women in Lowell, from the earliest days of the factory system through the end of the female operative period in the 1860's. What form that play will take??? Well, the jury is still out on that one. But there is a vast amount of primary material - things written by the women themselves, along with music and other visual representations - that seem meant to be dramatized in some fashion.
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