Well, the time has come to hear the play read. Next Monday is the day, and my friend Roseann and my partner Julie will join me in listening. I'm feeling pretty anxious about this as I don't know where I really am. I think this can work as a reading, but it definitely is not a traditional play with dialogue and conflict. I'm still not sure how I feel about that. I guess, in some ways, I feel that I have failed and I'm very concerned about other people seeing that. At the same time, the goal was to do this as a reading in our FreshINK series in the fall, and I need to make a decision in the next week if I'm really going to be ready and open to doing that.
I think that writing and/or creating anything is complex. For me, at this point in my life, after talking about this and wanting to do this... I can't really gage the work and feel unsure about how to move on from here. I'm certainly not sure that I'm ready for the kind of critique that I know will come, even if it works on some level. It is hard enough to be honest here. Publicly and face to face????? I'm not sure. BUT, I'm going to have the reading and that is the next step. Whoever might be reading this, wish me luck.
As I wrote that last sentence, another idea came to me. It really only has to feel like a success to me. I have to remember that. The goal has never been to have this published or see it move to other places, but rather to engage with ideas and a topic that feel important and exciting to me.
Stay tuned to next week's 'assessment' of the reading.
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